Jimin hated paper cups with wax rims that softened after twenty minutes. If he sat with an iced Americano long enough, the cardboard turned spongy under his thumb, so he had made a habit of stripping the printed sleeve into precise, identical rings before the condensation could ruin the seam. He did it now at the low bench outside Genius Lab. Four clean rings sat on his knee. The fifth tore crookedly at the corner, and he let out a sharp, clicking breath through his teeth.
The red light over the studio door was dark. That was the problem.
For three weeks, Min Yoongi had maintained the erratic schedule of an injured dog crawling under a porch to lick its ribs. He showed up to choreography rehearsals ten minutes before the warm-up, hit his marks with an economy of motion that looked like efficiency until one realized he had stopped laughing between run-throughs, and then vanished back to the third floor. Everyone else wrote it off as mixtape tunnel vision. Namjoon had merely shrugged over lunch on Tuesday, his mouth full of dried seaweed, and muttered that Yoongi had scrapped twenty-four bars of a beat he’d spent half of August building.
"He's just stubborn," Namjoon had said. "Let him hit the wall. He'll turn around when his forehead bleeds."
Jimin had not shrugged. Jimin had spent the last five days waiting for his revised vocal guide for the unit bridge. The email never arrived. When he asked the senior sound engineer on Thursday if the stems had cleared mastering, the engineer had blinked, rubbed his headset dent, and mumbled that Yoongi took the external drive home over the weekend and hadn't reloaded the cloud folder.
Nobody took work home anymore. The company's data protocol was strict enough that a missing drive required three signatures and an explanation in writing.
Jimin brushed the paper rings off his sweatpants. He didn't knock three times. He knocked once, hard, using his middle knuckle right against the brass deadbolt so the metal would carry the impact inside.
A stool scraped. Footsteps followed—shuffling, heel-heavy, dragging the wool slippers Yoongi had stolen from a hotel in Fukuoka two years ago.
The door unlatched four inches.
Yoongi did not pull it wider. He stood framed in the sliver of amber studio light, wearing an oversized black crewneck with a collar frayed at the throat from too many industrial wash cycles. His bangs were flat against his forehead, clumped with grease and sweat. Under his eyes, the skin looked bruised, that distinct yellow-purple cast that came from living on canned black coffee and four-hour naps on a faux-leather couch.
"It's three in the morning, Jimin-ah." His voice was gravel dragged through wet sand. Low, flat, offering nothing.
"The unit track," Jimin said. He didn't ask to come in; he leaned his shoulder against the doorframe, forcing Yoongi either to push the door back against Jimin’s weight or open it fully. "The arrangement for the second chorus was due to the performance director at noon. Sungdeuk-hyung asked me at nine tonight if we were changing the formation, and I had to look like an idiot because I haven't heard the rough mix since Friday."
Yoongi stared at him. His eyes didn't blink. "It's not ready."
"You told Namjoon it was ready on Wednesday."
"I lied to Namjoon."
"Why?"
"Because he asks too many questions." Yoongi went to ease the door shut.
Jimin stuck his foot across the threshold. The rubber sole of his sneaker wedged firmly into the jamb, stopping the heavy soundproof panel an inch before it met the magnet.
"Move your foot," Yoongi said softly. The tone wasn't furious; it was worse. It was the icy, defensive simmer that usually preceded him locking himself in his bedroom for thirty-six hours straight.
"No," Jimin said. "You've been dodging me for three weeks. If my pitch is wrong on the falsetto, tell me. If you think the lyric line is too sentimental, change it. But you don't take the master drive off the company server and pretend the bridge isn't written. I know you wrote it. Hoseok said he heard you playing the Rhodes progression through the wall on Monday."
Yoongi’s jaw shifted. A tiny muscle below his left temple twitched once, then vanished under the pale sweep of his hair. "Hoseok has big ears and no sense of timing."
"He said it sounded finished."
"It isn't."
"Let me hear it."
"No."
"Hyung."
"I said no, Jimin." Yoongi didn't raise his voice, but the weight behind the syllables was immovable. "Go back to the dorm. Sleep. We'll fix the balance with the producers tomorrow afternoon."
"You won't," Jimin said, the temper he had spent forty-eight hours stifling suddenly flaring hot in the hollow of his chest. "You'll show up forty minutes late, you'll hand Pdogg a flash drive with the vocal track buried five decibels under the snare, and you'll tell the room that my timbre didn't fit the groove."
The air between them snapped taut.
Yoongi looked at him then—not at his forehead, not past his shoulder into the empty hallway, but dead into Jimin's eyes. There was something raw and ugly in the line of his mouth, an exhaustion so total it looked like anger.
"You think I'm trying to sabotage your track?" Yoongi asked, the words clipped and sharp as broken glass.
"I think you have a problem with me," Jimin fired back, stepping through the doorway before Yoongi could brace against it. "And you won't say it to my face because you think you're being polite, but it's not polite. It's cowardly. You haven't looked at me in rehearsal once since the Sapporo shoot. You changed your makeup station so you wouldn't share the mirror with me. And now you're sitting in here gutting a song we spent six months writing together because you'd rather ruin the arrangement than sit in a studio with me for two hours."
Yoongi backed up two paces into the room, retreating toward his rolling chair as if retreating to an entrenched bunker.
The studio smelled intensely of stale peppermint tea, heat from cooling audio interfaces, and the faint, citrusy bite of the laundry detergent Yoongi’s mother sent from Daegu in five-liter jugs. The dual monitors above the desk were glowing. On the left screen, the DAW timeline was an open wound of purple and green audio stems, sliced into dozens of minute fragments. On the right, a desktop folder sat open, its title nothing more than a string of random numbers.
Jimin followed him inside and kicked the heavy door shut behind him. The lock engaged with a solid, airtight clunk that cut off the hum of the hallway ventilation.
"Say it," Jimin challenged. He crossed his arms over his chest, his hands gripping his own elbows tightly to stop the fine tremor running through his fingers. "Tell me what I did wrong. Did I step on your line in the interview? Did I say something stupid on camera? What did I do?"
Yoongi didn't sit down. He gripped the edge of the mahogany desk, his knuckles turning porcelain-white under the fluorescent shelf light. "You didn't do anything."
"Bullshit."
"Watch your language."
"Don't give me the senior speech, not tonight," Jimin snapped, his voice cracking on the final syllable before he could smooth it out. "You don't get to treat me like a stranger all month and then hide behind hierarchy the minute I call you out. I work just as hard as you do. I stayed in the basement until five this morning practicing that four-count turn because Sungdeuk told me my weight transfer was lazy, and then I came up here expecting to track the guide with you. And you weren't here. You were at your apartment. You ignored six messages."
"I was sleeping."
"Your phone was active on the chat server at four-fifteen!"
"I woke up to piss!"
"You're lying!" Jimin took another step forward, entering the narrow space between the keyboard console and the sofa. "Why are you shutting me out?"
"Because I need space to work!" Yoongi shouted. The volume exploded out of him, shockingly loud in the soundproofed box of the room, vibrating against the acoustic foam panels on the ceiling. He shoved his chair back; the castors squeaked violently against the wood floor. "Can I not have three fucking weeks where I just hear my own head without someone hovering over my shoulder demanding a progress report?"
"I am your unit partner!"
"You are suffocating me!"
The phrase hung in the air like smoke after a discharge.
Jimin froze.
The silence that followed was suffocating. The cooling fans in the rack units whirred—a steady, indifferent drone that felt ridiculously loud. Jimin felt the blood drain from his cheeks, leaving his skin prickly and cold. He had weathered Yoongi’s bad moods for nearly eight years. He knew the sharp edges of Yoongi's tongue better than anyone in the group; he had learned early on where the soft tissue was and how to dodge the snap. But this wasn't the usual caustic snap of a tired musician. It felt personal. It felt deliberate, aimed squarely at the center of his chest.
"Suffocating you," Jimin repeated, his voice dropping to a whisper.
Yoongi’s chest heaved. He didn't drop his gaze, but his hands loosened their grip on the desk, slipping an inch down the mahogany trim. He looked slightly nauseous, the dark circles under his eyes standing out like bruises on his pale face.
"Jimin-ah," Yoongi muttered, the anger vanishing entirely, replaced by a hollow, desperate fatigue. "Just... don't."
"I didn't know I made your life that hard," Jimin said quietly. He looked down at the floor, suddenly feeling the weight of the last three weeks crashing down on his shoulders—the sixteen-hour dance sessions, the sleepless nights staring at lyrics that didn't feel right, the persistent, gnawing dread that the older man had finally grown weary of his voice, his presence, his need for reassurance. "You could have just told the company to give the bridge to Jungkook. You didn't have to ruin the track to get rid of me."
"I'm not trying to get rid of you," Yoongi said. His voice was cracked, raw around the margins.
"Then what is this?" Jimin gestured furiously at the room, at the monitors, at the closed door. "Look at this place! You've been living like a ghost! You won't even look at me during the blocking rehearsals!"
"Because I can't!"
"Why?" Jimin shouted back, tears of sheer frustration finally pricking the corners of his eyes, blurring the harsh edges of the mixer desk. "Give me one reason! One real reason why you can't stand to be in the same room with me!"
"Because I'm not listening to your pitch, you idiot!" Yoongi exploded, slamming his flat palm down onto the plastic surface of the MIDI controller with a dry, sharp thwack. "I haven't listened to your pitch in three weeks! I haven't cut the bridge because every time I solo your vocal track through these monitors, I can hear you breathing between the syllables, and it makes me sick to my stomach!"
Jimin went completely still. "What?"
"I sit here," Yoongi said, his breath coming in ragged, ugly gasps, his skin flushing a dark, blotchy red down the sides of his neck, "and I solo the center channel. Ten hours a day. Twelve hours a day. I hear the click of your tongue before you hit the B4. I hear you sighing into the pop filter between takes. I can hear you humming under your breath while the metronome clicks, and I can't... I can't write a single fucking bar of counter-melody because all I can think about is the way you looked when you recorded it in the booth with your hair tied back."
The room seemed to tilt sideways.
Jimin didn't move. He didn't even breathe. The sound of his own pulse was a roar in his ears, louder than the cooling fans, louder than the phantom bass trapped in the soundboards.
Yoongi looked away. He turned his back entirely, gripping the edge of the rack mount, his shoulders hunched upward toward his ears as if trying to shrink beneath his frayed sweatshirt. His neck was crimson. The knuckles of his right hand were trembling against the metal casing of the compressor.
"I tried to pitch it down," Yoongi whispered to the wall, the words barely carrying across the four feet of carpet between them. "I tried to drown it in reverb. I tried running it through the modular synth to make it sound like a machine. But it's you. It's just you. And I can't... I can't be your producer right now, Jimin-ah. I can't do it."
Jimin stared at the curve of Yoongi's back.
On the left monitor, the cursor continued to blink silently at bar sixty-four, right where the vocal line was cut off mid-breath.
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